I hope

I hope you love me on the days I find it hard to smile.

I hope you love me on the days that my depression won’t let me get out of bed.

I hope you love me when my anxiety has me shaking and controllably.

I hope you love me when I can’t stop crying and I don’t even know why.

I hope you love me when I doubt your love.

I hope you love me when my past haunts me and I can’t get any sleep.

I hope you love me when I’m angry at everything and everyone, including myself.

I hope you love me, especially when I can’t love myself.

I hope you won’t leave, even when I try to push you away.

I hope that when you find me crying, that you wrap your arms around me and say “It’s okay.”

I hope you convince me to go on an adventure, instead of staying in bed.

I hope you find all sorts of ways to make me smile.

I hope that I’m not too much and that you always miss my touch.

I hope you don’t give up on me, like I so often want to.

It is easy to love me when I am glowing like the sunshine.

It is easy to love me when I am filled with happiness and laughter.

It is easy to love me when I have been able to forget my past for just a moment.

It is easy to love me when I am hopeful and optimistic.

It can be easy to love me when things are good, but that isn’t the way life goes.

I just hope that you can love the broken parts of me that I never let the world see.